Tis the season

Twas the night before Christmas and all through the season of love, happiness, friends and family. And to my love ones. Especially the love I have for Javier Hernandez. Its been over 5 yrs now since we meet and started to date. I never thought that i would ever fall in love. I have always been afraid of commitment. But i always end up getting hurt and used. and taken advantage of. But when i am with Javier he always have a way of getting me to smile. And see's how i get excited when he comes over and surprises me. I still want to marry him. and have that dream wedding. I have thought about a fall October wedding, and or  a Christmas wedding too. I have found the perfect wedding dress of my dreams, And one day I would love to have that wedding dress. And one of these day's I will have that dress and also the perfect hair piece too. But one thing is still missing. ? will Javier decide that he wants to marry me. Will he take me to our future and be a family. I don't know, just have to wait and see...